Here is the 5 most played songs for the year, combining my Spotify and YouTube Music…
HTIS became a quick addiction to my playlist this year, I loved the beat and the melody of Meg Myers´ voice. I remember telling Alexander to check it out but that the lyrics were a bit tacky. It wasn´t til much later that I allowed myself to really listen to the lyrics and realised how much the song was describing me. Maybe my spirit was subconsciously drawn to it…
Most of you know the story, little boy, self shaming, socially awkward, frigid, scared to get naked, terrified of anyone seeing his cock, ya-dee-ya-da. If you know it, skip this and go to the next song. For those who didn’t know about Tristan, my birth name, he was a very different person to the man you are accustomed to today. Part a product of a stifling and heavily sheltered christian upbringing, an insular childhood that was culturally and emotionally confining. I thought masturbation was a weird thing only my body did after doing a high amount of crunches that made my cock rub against the top waistband of my underwear and shorts! (if you ever wondered where I got my abs!) The month I had water polo as a subject for Phys-Ed I would come to school petrified and having to construct a new elaborate excuse for why I forgot my swimming trunks again! The real reason, I didn’t want anyone to see my tiny penis in a pair of dick togs! Homosexuality was not in my vocab and when it did appear I was told it was a word for “phedofillia” (argumentatively not incorrect.) My journey from that naive and afraid boy to the sex icon I am today was a long and arduous one, filled with stubborn determination to face everything I was afraid of or fall deeper into a dark pit of chronic depression. No regrets but a few FKIN mistakes! And a complete physical and mental transition that warranted a name change. I didn’t become a different person. I discovered the person I was meant to be all along. Just like in the lyrics to this song…
For about a decade now, I have always felt frustrated with what is offered to me in gay clubs and dance parties. And when anyone asked me what kind of music I wanted to dance to I would go straight to Pixel Grip, who also became the foundation for my initial I JUST PRESS PLAY dj playlists I started creating this year…
I would revisit my heterosexuality for this woman…
And here is the list of my most listened to artists and albums for the year.
Nu 1 artist and no surprise was Kylie! and in my top played albums was Impossible Princess & X.
Also in both artist and album was Pixel Grip and Rebecca Black´s album, Salvation.
a new artist entry was Salvia.
and it wouldn’t be my top 5 without…
Hey Rogan loved your stuff for a long time now. I wanted to know what your turns on are when in the gym? I have this fetish/desire that I would work out hard with a big beefy guy such as yourself, get all hot n sweaty, follow that with some hot n sweaty massages and then get all down and dirty. Have you got any wild fantasies like that in the gym space? Also happy Christmas and I hope 2026 is amazing for you. A year of healing and reflection for all mankind.
Honestly the only turn on I get at the gyn is training and looking at myself in the mirror, or training with a fuck bud or muscle pup Im training up. I approach the gym with a more competitive bodybuilder approach, so I´m there to grow, not to have sexual fantasies. Having said that, I have wanked off with random guys in the gym showers at a gym where i knew that was a common thing which was hot but that was only at that gym.