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POZ is no longer a NEG word.

By ASK ROGAN, XXX 2 Comments

Firstly.. The Disclaimer.

This post may be topic sensitive to a certain demographic of gays who are older and had to go through the horrific AIDS epidemic. PLEASE know that in no way would I ever be-little that important history or what you guys had to endure. I mean absolutely no dis-respect or am I making light any of our history. Like other aspects of gay fetish culture such as SPH (Small Penis Humiliation) which I do have a lot of experience with growing up, I now accept its place in modern gay role play and have turned a negative into a positive (Pun intended.)

The Fetish.

BBUG CHASING is a fetish of intentionally seeking to be infected with HIV by getting it fucked into you by a POZed cock. It can also be used for the similar act of seeking out STIS.

I am not talking about STEALTHING, in which a POZ man actively tries to infect a negative man with HIV, without the latter’s knowledge or consent. This usually is done by the non-consensual removal of a condom during sex. Or can be by the GIVER choosing not inform his partner of his sexual status. Some guys just get off on slipping the condom off, or breaking it, during sex without telling their partner. This can also be called a type of stealthing. I am not turned on by this or have absolutely any interest in it.

The first real experience I had of bug chasing was when I was age a job fucking this guy who asked me to tell him I wanted to POZ him. As I always do, I took him literally and replied, “Um, but I’m not positive.” He said role play it with me…

Now when it comes to role play, I have to admit role plays don’t actually turn me on. I also find it hard to step into a role play if I can’t relate it to me or fully take on that fictional mind set. Call me more of a method fucker.

…so when this guy said role play POZing him I had to pause and try and think, how do I do this? The guy may have noticed this and pointed me on the general direction. I can’t remember what he actually said but it would have been something along the lines of, “I want your toxic seed to infect me so I know I totally belong to you.” BAM! I could def relate to owning this sub not only with my cock and load but with my toxic load that would stain him for life and make him belong to me! My cock was rock hard and off I went!

Fantasy Vs Reality.

I remember bringing it into sex with a sex partner who also got turned on by it. And then proceeded to use it any time he wanted to try and make me blow quicker. One day he called me and said he was going to hook up with a guy who was actually detectable and wanted to POZ him, and asked my permission. We had a Alpha -Sub/ Daddy – Boy relationship. Suddenly fantasy became a very stark reality and I found myself surprisingly nervous. For some reason allowing my boy to go and get (possibly) POZed by another guy didn’t feel right. I ended up settling on it being my FOMO and ALPHA characteristics. For example I would feel fine if we went together or was orchestrating the meet or if I was the one who was doing the POZing. In the end the guy couldn’t meet and that was that. But that day I discovered that bug chasing was a fantasy for me not a reality.

I have had many lovers and sexual partners that are POZ and undetectable. I have no doubt fucked guys that were detectable. I do not treat these men any differently than I would someone negative. If anything, the perverted mind in me may think the sex may be better with a POZ guy cause he may be more adventurous and piggy. POZ talk is a regular role-play or fantasy dialogue that turns me on and I practice with other guys who are also turned on by it. We mean no disrespect to anyone and are not promoting the actual act of bug chasing but the freedom of sexual fantasy and expression in a taboo topic that gets us off. Let’s face it if it wasn’t taboo, or considered, “naughty” or “dirty” would we still be turned on by it?

Where the line lays between it being fantasy and reality is completely up to you to discover…

We threw in the POZ talk right at the end, and it did what it always tends to do. Watch the film Daddy’s Faggot part two, now at my XXX page. The reason I felt inspired to write this post is because so many guys have messaged me saying how hot (brief) section was in the film or that they blew to it heaps of times! This made me aware that it was noticed and it was popular and like any fetish that may not be regular I always like to start an open conversation about it with my followers and educate the as best I can.

Just remember educate yourself on the sex acts or fetish’s you wish to explore, the pros and cons, dangers and solutions, and always communicate with your partners. Never feel ashamed to talk or ask or do. Within fundamental human respect and practice for yourself and your partner. And maybe try not to break the law while you’re at it.    

THERE IS NO SHAME IN GETTING AN STI.

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Recently I was approached by a guy who wanted to ask me questions about sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) and infections (STIs) within the context of creating adult content, but this can be applied to anyone’s everyday lifestyle so I thought I would share this conversation with you pigs.

1.How do you feel about STD/Sti’s?

I’m not fazed by getting an STI. I am not a bug chaser* but I understand that the chances of contracting one is high due to the sexual activity I want to practice and the frequency that I do so. Educate yourself about what is out there, how to recognise the symptoms and how to get treatment. It’s also important to communicate your sexual status, and to inform people you were in contact with if you have contracted something.

*Bug chser (alternatively bug chasing) is the rare practice of intentionally seeking human immunodeficiency virus (HIV) infection, or an STI, through sexual activity.

2.Do you see any value in anonymous sex?

I did not understand the sub text he meant with this question, but if he was referring to having sex with partners who I do not know, I mean that is 80% of my sexual encounters and I am fine with that. If he was asking, is it something I seek out – sure, I am totally into using a “beat” or “sauna” or “sex session” to go and have anonymous sex with one or many people. As far as hook ups or fuck buddy’s go, if I find someone who I have kick-ass awesome sex with I will always chose that over needing something new.

4. Would you keep working if you contracted a std/sti?

No, I get treated then go back to work. I have on the odd occasions called clients that I know a bug chasers, though the timing has never allowed that to happen. I don’t feel comfortable knowing I have something and not treating it straight away.

5. Do you find others in the industry more open about the topic or their status? Or is it circumstantial?

In general sex workers, weather escorts or porn filmers are more accustomed and relaxed about STI’s. It really comes down to the individual and it still amazes me how ignorant and uneducated some people are. Anyone who shames another person for contracting an STI is a moron. Especially if that person has done the correct thing and contacted them to let them know. That person is more likely to spreads shit cause they have an irrational hang up about the situation and fear communication.

You’re cock is so much smaller than mine!

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SPH (Small Penis Humiliation) is a fetish not to be mistaken with dick shamming. Any fetish I explore on my website is a mutual turn-on to me and the sub I am doing it with. This is not an option for me, as I only get turned on when I know I am turning on the sub I’m with. Like-minded to MACRO, MUSCLE WORSHIP or GROWTH FETISH I can get off on comparing a subs tiny cock putting it next to my massive monster cock! However, I do not glorify, endorse or will tolerate dick shamming or making another guy feel insecure by his dick size. Having suffered from dick shamming growing up and knowing the physiological effect t it can have. Be proud of the cock you have, tiny or huge and remember everyone has a different fetish and turn on so that our physical differences shouldn’t be shunned but should be celebrated.

when DEPRESSION HITS you FIGHT or SINK.

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My brother calls me and literally says, “So… Everyone in London thinks you’re gonna off yourself!” Followed closely with, “I’m thinking to myself did I miss the signs?” The bloody twat can make the most depressing wet rag laugh.

I know a lot of you will reach out with supportive words as you always have and have always been greatly appreciated, even the amount of you that have taken the time to message and offered your personal support. Please know that just making this post has helped me greatly. I am not someone who finds it easy to talk about my depression. And they say talking to someone is the best thing you can do but you are usually met with typical encouraging words of being of strong will and mind and all the things you know you should be but the depression is stopping you from being, so their words end up being condescending and repetitive and less than helpful. BUT for me, making this post and talking to you guys makes it manifest from my mind into reality and I am forced to stand up and fight it ‘cause now have an audience which wakes the warrior in me! Hey I never said my mind isn’t fucked up. I also wanted to tell you guys why I have been vacant from social media and why several pages at my website are down, namely the shop page, cam vids & cust vids, because I have not been in a state of mind to perform those tasks. For the first time since my battle wit depression as a teenager, my usual weapons against depression didn’t work, namely bodybuilding and fucking. (Head-case!) And for the first time I am using anti-depressants. And therapy. And have the most supportive family and friends support. And I have to make a call out to Luara who has been my sister in arms for the last several years and Alex who has been quintessential in finding me and pulling me out of that dark place. His patience and support have been very tested, I was literally Linda Blair’ing the fuck outta him as if he was my priest. I can’t thank him, my family and friends and you guys enough.

Watch this come-back…