I dont know when I started to have a GROWTH FETISH. I was into muscle and hyper-masculinity from the the time I remember, Tarzan, He Man, the barbarian.s in the shit films my dad would rent from teh local video shop. But when my passion turned from big to vulgar i cant tell you other than i FKN lov being a Growth Pig Daddy and that I inspire muscle boys around teh world to grow into muscle beasts!
Its been hard for me this year, having consistent injures, depression phases and just the global relocation, hasn’t allowed me to have a consistent gym routine. I have lost an incredible amount of size, though you may not have noticed cause you dont scrutinise my physique with a bodybuilding competitive standard and I have become very good and inventive at lighting my body! I am slowly getting use of my shoulder again but realistically I wont be “smashing” the gym til 2027. with a great muscular body comes great body dysmorphia. And i suffer from it like every other bodybuilder. part of my depression this year was a reaction to my body which was a vicious cycle one feeding the other. It was only about a week ago that I looked at myself in teh mirror and thought fuck yeah, Im FKIN hot and that this physique is just another evolution in my bodybuilding life journey.
its incredible how easy it can be to simply switch a lever in your. mind and you get an entirely different perspective and outlook. and ll. of a sudden I was like “I wanna fuck!” and started thinking of who i could call up to start making some new hot films then remembered my damn shoulder. But i plan on going back to the gym and filming very soon and just working around the injury as best I can while I continue rehab to get it back on track.
